On The Brink


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On The Brink emerged out of a collaborative project I was working on called Postcards From Mental States with Julia Rose Lewis. 

“We started by exchanging digital archives of travelling through America at times when we had both felt overwhelmed; a simple realisation that we tend to document difficult times in our lives. We create archives of ourselves to revise at a time when we are less overwhelmed. We know we are very easy to very easily overwhelmed. If whelm originally meant to overturn, then a vessel is implied here. To overwhelm is to over-repeat turn a vessel. Turning over an engine gets a motorboat started, and yet overturning a boat pauses or stops the boat in the water. Exchanging our personal archives felt like turning over an hourglass. The passage of sand back and forth and back and forth is a soothing and subtle reference to death. The pattern of sand grains runs on the hourglass . . .”

Lewis & Hawkins



The  work we produced also generated a lot of text poems, which were used, in part, to establish titles for the project’s visual pieces. From these titles, and their formulation, I began to write about some of the themes emergent in the digital archives I shared with Julia. Of a time of confusion, uncertainty and dissonance whilst driving up, down and around the east and west coasts of the USA. I was tour managing a singer-songwriter who had a new album to play. These memories began to feel familiar again after watching and digesting a lot of the documentary programmes of Adam Curtis. I kept writing. I began to assemble field recordings I’d amassed over the years; of protest marches, discordant sounds, the background hum of voices and street noise. Sounds that were unnerving, fluid and in-flux. Travel, hyper-focus, dissent, movement, dislocation, place, disassociation, re-association, waste, chaos featured heavily in my mind. I recorded myself reading the first quarter of the book, and then created a lop-sided, brain-fried soundtrack. That soundtrack I called On The Brink and released it with a ‘zine of some text and AI generated images using random words from the text.

 







When On The Brink was as complete as it could be at that moment, I continued editing until the book called Music For The Last Couple was created. There will be more versions and further books in this series . . .

Paul Hawkins: words, field recordings and other noises. Released September 7, 2024

With thanks to Leafcutter John's Forrester software, Jan Jelnik, Muslimgauze, Captain Ganja and The Space Patrol, Pole, Omerar Ananda and The Violent Buddhist.

Copies of the digital album and ‘zine can be bought at the Eachwhat bandcamp website.
Music For The Last Couple (Steel Incisors) is available to purchase here.

Eachwhat - Paul Hawkins - Hesterglock - Bob Modem - Don’t Drink From The Mainstream